Ali Mir13 Aug 2019
You didn't have to
You didn't have to mark me
I see it in the mirror and I shiver why did you make it harder for me
As if it isn't hard enough to forget what happened
As if it's not something I remember when I lay on my bed
Unable to escape the memory of being a fucking object for your pleasure.
You didn't have to leave a mark on my neck
The mark you left on me mentally is far more permanent than it
But you just had to do it.
I can't put any of these feelings into words
I can't cry this grief out
I don't feel heartache, I never loved you.
I just feel betrayal and fear
And it hurts in a way I've never felt before.
I can't walk around in public without my body weakening with anxiety
And my breath quickening with panic.
You didn't have to mark me like I'm yours
You didn't even want me anyways.
You selfish bastard you selfish bastard you selfish bastard
It's my fault
For letting your big words and small talk get to me
You didn't have to do this